Intuition and Finding Yourself in Divine Awareness

Everything in this course depends on one ability: finding the perspective of Divine Awareness, C3, and coming back to it. Over and over. That’s the whole journey in miniature. You notice you’ve left. You return. And from there you choose your response on purpose instead of on autopilot: which thoughts you follow, which feelings you feed, and what you do next.

If Part One of the book felt slippery, that’s expected. It is the hardest part of the book, and it’s the part the book could do the least about, because a few chapters can only take you so far on something you have to experience for yourself. This article isn’t going to reteach Part One. It picks up where Part One leaves off, for anyone who read the words, agreed with them, and still can’t quite find the thing they’re pointing at.

Start with something you’ve said a hundred times. “I noticed myself getting angry.” Or “I caught myself doing it again.” Say that sentence slowly and look at it. Who is the I doing the noticing? And who is the myself being noticed?

You’ve probably never had to answer that, because English only gives you one word for it. One first-person pronoun. So you’ve lived most of your life assuming there’s only one “I” in there. That you are your identity. That the “I” in “I am” is the whole story. And that “I” is real. The book calls it your Avatar, your ego mind, and it’s built on your Identity Triangle. It’s you. It’s just not all of you.

Look at the sentence again. Something noticed the Avatar getting angry. The sentence doesn’t tell you what did the noticing. That’s the question, and it’s what the rest of this is about. Because you don’t have to go build a second self. What you’re looking for is a different perspective on the self you already have, and you’ve been visiting it your whole life without knowing it had a name.

Not all noticing is the same, though, and this is where it gets precise.

Sometimes the noticing arrives as a sentence in your head. There I go again. That’s Meta-Awareness. The mind recognizing its own activity. It’s useful. It’s a real step up from not noticing at all. And it is still the mind. It’s C2 looking at C2, and it’s still inside the Story, with a stake in how the Story comes out.

But sometimes something else happens. Before you’ve built an explanation, before the sentence shows up, there’s a widening. The anger is still there. The thoughts are still racing. But you’re no longer all the way inside them. You can see them. And you can feel the difference, even if you couldn’t describe it.

You think Meta-Awareness. You feel Divine Awareness.

But feeling something intensely does not mean you’ve found C3. Fear is felt. Shame is felt. Craving is felt. They can light up your whole body while you are completely fused with the Story producing them. So the test was never “is it felt?” The test is where you’re feeling it from. The feeling is weather. Conditioning feels the weather from inside the weather, as you. Divine Awareness feels the weather from the sky, the sky the weather is happening in.

Intuition lives in that same place, and it’s felt in the body too. Intuition is the language of C3 and C4. It doesn’t come through the mind. You already know this. You say “my gut tells me” and “my heart says” and “something told me” and “I just knew.” Listen to your own speech. You already separate the thoughts you think from the knowing that comes from somewhere else. You’ve been hearing this language your whole life. You just never thought of it as a language, or asked who was speaking it. And hearing it isn’t the same as understanding it. Most of us are a long way from fluent, and that’s what the practice is for.

So: intuition is the language of Source, and Divine Awareness is where you hear it. Nothing is being sent to you from somewhere else. It’s Source speaking through you. Follow the language and it leads you to the seat. When you drop out of the commentary and into the felt sense, you are most of the way there. The rest is looking at your Avatar from that place, without climbing back into your head to do it.

One caution, and it matters. Intuition often arrives as a quiet knowing, without explanation or argument. Conditioning tends to arrive with a Story attached: a reason you have to do something, avoid something, or protect something. But neither the intensity nor the quietness of a feeling tells you for certain where it came from. A protective Part can speak in a calm, perfectly reasonable voice. The question is always the same one: are you experiencing this from inside the Story, or witnessing it from where the Story doesn’t define you?

Here’s a way to look for yourself. Not later. Now, as you read this.

Think of a moment in the last few days when you reacted to something automatically and then caught yourself. A sharp word. A wave of dread. The urge to check your phone again. Bring it back as clearly as you can.

Now notice what your mind is already doing with it. There’s probably some commentary running. I shouldn’t have said that. There I go again. This is the thing I always do. That’s the mind examining itself. Meta-Awareness. Don’t argue with it and don’t try to shut it off.

Instead, notice that the commentary is happening. Notice whatever feeling came along with it: a tightening, a heat, a sinking. Let all of it be there, the memory, the judgment, the feeling, without doing anything about any of it. And just be with the whole thing. Can you be present with the judgment without becoming the judgment? Does anything shift? Don’t try to make something happen or feel something special. Just notice.

If something does shift, even a little, you’ll recognize it. A loosening. A bit more room. The judgment may still be there, but you aren’t all the way inside it anymore. You don’t have to join the argument or defend anything. That shift is what you’re looking for. That’s the seat.

If nothing shifts, that’s fine too. This isn’t a test you pass or fail. You’ll have another chance in about five minutes, when the next thought shows up, and another one after that. It’s usually that subtle. There’s no light show and no voice from above. If you were expecting fireworks, you could walk right past it.

There is one driver’s seat. The only question is who’s in it: the programming, running on autopilot, or you, awake. Divine Awareness isn’t something you earn by doing this course well. It was there before you ever noticed it, and it’s there right now whether you’re noticing it or not. You don’t acquire it. You recognize it. And then you lose sight of it again, because that’s how this works, and you come back. That’s the practice: not holding onto a state, but coming back to the seat.

Bring this to our first meeting: when you caught yourself this week, what was doing the catching, and what did it feel like from there?